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Chained
02:18
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It’s living inside, living inside, it is a part of me
Dwelling within, coursing my veins
It’s strengthened with chained chains
I’ll carry it until
The last breath I ever take
(Nothing’s etched in stone)
Just when I had the answers
Just when I thought I was safe
Comfort ripped from my fingertips
The walls I built on faith
Crumbled down before me
Here I am, a broken man
Standing in the rubble
Choking on debris
I close my eyes, you’re all I see
Can you still see me?
We find our value in the hand we hold
We find contentment
We see our purpose in another’s eyes
But when they shut them, and we see nothing
We lose everything
But I won’t let this be a burden to me
Though I accept defeat, I will carry you with me until
The last breath I ever take.
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Separation
02:33
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I’m seeing pictures of you
Where I once stood there’s a ghost and it’s haunting me
I see no silver, I see no gold
I see no diamonds
Just solitude and separation
Apologetic? Well I accept it
If you don’t want me
Then just erase me
And separate me
And separate me from yourself
A hand once decorated, now barren skin displayed
A promise made and thrown away
Erased so easily
So alive, we burned so bright
Now only ashes sing our praise
And I will gather them
And make a bracelet for you
So you’ll remember this
So you’ll remember that
I gave you everything
I’ll walk away from this
And I’ll find peace within
Though I was terrified
I gave you everything I had.
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Visions Of Decay
03:07
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I dig my nails into the ground
Searching from something that will set me free
From these chains I wear around my feet
For any trace of who I used to be
Before my eyes were clouded
And hatred swallowed me
Dig into my throat
Smash my eyes so I can’t see
Rip my tongue out of my mouth
And smash out all my teeth
Tell me what you see
Tell me if you see this beast that dwells in me
Controlling all my thoughts
Visions of decay
Sickening ideas
Deep within my brain
No longer man, immortalized
Seeing through the devil’s eyes
Cleansed by flames
There’s no more suffering
I cut my losses when I lost you
I bowed my head and paid the devil his dues
Released my soul into the reaper’s hands
Now here I stand, the shell of a man
Living in apathy and blessed with the curse to feel nothing
Hatred set me free.
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Dislocation
03:57
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How long until I break this curse
Where I can barely breathe?
Where your face is etched into everything
And your scent lives in my sheets
How long until I catch my reflection
And I’m happy with what I see?
And this new town with new streets and new ambitions
Doesn’t feel like it’s just empty
Because it feels like a city and I see buildings
But I swear it’s only me
And when I open my mouth to try and speak
There’s only nothing
I started writing again
In hopes of finding peace with myself
But even the trees have given up and let go of all their leaves
Just like every time that you gave up on me
And I fell to the ground at your feet
(Maybe if I had a different voice)
You’d still want to hear me sing
(Maybe if I was a different tree)
You wouldn’t just always leave
So I’ll smash every mirror in this god damn house
So I don’t have to see me
And I’ll grow my hair out as long as I can
Until I don’t recognize me
‘Cause maybe if I had a different face
You’d still want to look at me
Thought I heard you whisper words of peace
Another wasted dream
I’ll let go of the past
But the scars will remain
And I’ll keep trying
When I saw all your strength
I felt all your pain
I’ll let go of the past
But the scars will remain
(I’ll chase you away with the bottle,
Though I still taste you in my teeth).
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Sea Of Selfishness
03:23
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I see an army of demons around me
They tell me that I can’t escape my past
They say they’ll always be haunting me
Drowning further in a sea of selfishness
I can’t accept the things I cannot change
So I hang my head in shame
I tried and I tried and I tried
To be a better man
But you were singing songs with words that I can’t understand
I tried and I tried and I tried to look into your eyes
But you looked back at me like I wore a disguise
And I’ve been breaking down these walls
As I was building you a home
And I’ve been listening to words you use
To use them in a poem for you
Do you know the feeling?
That sinking feeling in your gut
When nothing you ever do is ever fucking good enough
Have you felt the feeling?
The feeling of being a ghost
Roaming through this home
Invisible, neglected, and alone
While they all lusted for your body
I fell in love with your mind
But when I needed your affection
You didn’t have the time
Exister, I was only an exister.
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Exister Louisville, Kentucky
Victor.
Dakota.
Matt.
Nikki.
Josh.
Play with passion.
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